Facing Facts.

This week has been a tough one. I admit I actually felt the pressure of becoming a senior, from the previous week or so, i have to be very independent and deal with relations of that matter. I seem that i am capable to handle those types of things, so it looks pretty good as in a future reference. Summer school is a duzy, lots of work, but hey i messed up and i gotta work for it to get my grade what i want. Grades are a MUST in regarding of my future in whatever i pursue to do, because i've been slacking and its not acceptable. No way ima be a failure of somesort to my family, i know better, and i've been raised better than that. So in that case I've focusing on my school studies a lot. Also drumline, drumming, music.... all in the same branch has been keepin me better. I've been practicing lately to an extent that focusing on the smallest of things. I know where i am at skills wise, but sometimes for some reason i always tell myself not good enough, you don't try hard. So i am pushing myself each day, until i grad. All in all school drumming and family has been keepin me sane, hopefully i will last through 4 more weeks of this school haha.

Please, I try to be a nice guy. And sometimes people cant just take my gratitude towards them and carry it, they gotta start shit. Like its not bad shit, but its just weird stuff like idiotic things, i wanna be friendly. But i guess some people cant understand that im just that type of guy, nevertheless its just me. So i hope people will stop trippin and just enjoy life, have fun... with me if u want? LOL ... but ima be the same person day in and day out. I just try to make the best of it.

Which brings me to the next topic of "girls", the dreaded ones haha. yea yea my main focus to them isnt tryin to start anything, because #1 i dont have the time, #2 i dont have chances. :D So just to eliminate them of my mind makes me feel better. I can admire from a distant but its just like what every other guy does each day so no difference. But in time hopefully i could find someone who likes me for me.. WHO KNOWS.. *tryin not to doubt* I could probably go on and on with this subject, but ima keep it nice and short.. isuck

While i write this i see myself as a growing up young man with numerous plans later in life. In the end i wanna do what i like to do, hopefully that turns that way. My passion is music/producing/rapping, drumming, computer stuff.. hopefully i can incorporate all those. I'd love to march drum corps, tech some schools, maybe even become a drum head.. get sponsored and stay with the drumming community with the most positive vibe. And dealing with that i can also involve my music with it. And when my schooling comes i want to .. get my BA major in Computer Science minor in percussion if i can.. and get my AA in business administration.. It seems very possible, i just have to keep my head up like all say and keep striving for it. I know that i can do it.

FACE THE FACTS... life is short, goes by fast, ends for all of us.. take advantage of each day.. live it to the best capability. I could tell you that i still remember my first day of kindergarten, but now in a couple of months i am going to be a senior in high school. Seems like a year ago I was in 6th grade, a new student and all wired up. But today its a whole different perspective, it goes by too fast than you think. Enjoy life. I try my hardest to live it like that, but as you know haters, peers, family, pet-peeves can just get in your face in the sense of like .. saying you cant do that even though some might be giving you an alternate direction, keep focused on yourself. In time things will work and you will realize that you did not waste time... and no regrets will be on your shoulder.


I was i was a better person. I feel like i dont deserve certain things i get. Sadly, i made numerous mistakes with trials and tribulations. IM GETTIN BETTER. I CAN FEEL IT. NO MATTER WHAT, ILL SUCCEED. WISH ME LUCK.

-ridub

PEACE