after school fun

o dearest blog

Its been a while since i've spat the truth.

Things have been pretty good...

still curious about things, but in time.. things will show.

SO MUCH THAT I HAVE IN MY MIND.. BUT I ONNO.
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look what i found :

LOL



CUTIE? ROFL



NTS STREET MOBB ALL DAY EVERYDAY !!

made this to Craig David's 7 Days Remix Beat

its s-a-t urday ha a lil joke, woke up and now its time, to clear my throat
basically metaphorically i am the sun
workin 24/7 to get the job done
but girl, you've got my book overdue
have my thoughts on pursue
got my emotions on, "THINK OF WHO?"
see i dont know, how to really break it down
show you where im from, and show u you're truly profound
on the m-i-c, i seem to be the grand guru lover
but in real life, the truth is... i am a lonely brother
in the game, with all my other homies.. what the deal
they say do what you gotta, foo stay real
so then, every other day i come to this
jottin my lyrics for whom i wanna enlist
have my emotions in a twist
but my goal is consis
-tent, to my most extent
i'm yours, i insist.

hook 2x: you-​are-​the-​one
lemme show you girl, where im from
through each day.... and each night
come aboard as i take you on a never ending flight

WORD? ..

i was hooked on this song when it first came out.. everywhere i was going.. i was bumping or saying this song. enjoy the lyrics while u listen to the masterpiece


Find your dreams come true
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
And I wonder if you know
What it means to find your dreams

I've been waiting on this my whole life
these dreams be waking me up at night
you say I think I'm never wrong
you know what, maybe you're right, aight

And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
And I wonder if you know
What it means to find your dreams

You say he get on your fucking nerves
you hope that he get what he deserves, word
do you even remember what the issue is
you just trying to find where the tissue is
you can still be who you wish you is
it ain't happen yet
and that's what the intuition is
when you hop back in the car
drive back to the crib
Run back to their arms
the smokescreens
the chokes and the screams
you ever wonder what it all really mean

And I wonder if you know
What it means, what it means
And I wonder if you know
What it means to find your dreams

and I'm back on my grind
a psychic read my lifeline
told me in my lifetime
my name would help light up the Chicago skyline
and that's what I'm
seven o'clock, that's primetime
heaven'll watch, God calling from the hotlines
why he keep giving me hot lines
i'm a star, how could I not shine
how many ladies in the house
how many ladies in the house without a spouse
something in your blouse got me feeling so aroused
what you about
on that independent shit
trade it all for a husband and some kids
you ever wonder what it all really mean
you ever wonder if you'll find your dreams

ooh la la la laaaaa

haha


phewwwwww.


ya know, i feel much better...


no hard feelings.. no upsets... just that one feeling hahhaa.


but yeah peeps, on the serious note.. i've been asking around others opinions because i don't wanna waste my time in something that i don't need to.. understand? why stress if u can make progress.. feel me?




BUT I'll wait all the time... u need <3





i know ur reading this lol.. OOH i know haha..

so yeah good luck friday.. and see u then..

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Last night's practice was pretty slow its been like that for the last 3 or 4 practices, because of people not being there.. staff missing, not feeling good... not feeling the practice (understand?).. so yeah hopefully things will get better.. i pray for it.. we need kick ass practices so when touraments come we are ready to show everyone whats up.. we've came from a LONG way hahah i remember being introduced into the new technique I SUCKED :D


and i still suck :).. so yeah gotta go practice NOW if i wanna make BD / RCC one day haha :)

latez.


T R U E L O V E I S I N S Y N C

the way its lookin

it does not look good.

im not making assumptions but... man.. whatwrongwithme

damn.. i wanna make it work too :(.



time will tell



ya know, i think i've played my role in the part...


ha... sadly.. i did what i could.

and everybody say

I remember way back when..

what?... back in the day...


back in the days.


haha as i listen to "back in the days".. it brings me back to the memories of when times were good, no stress, playing outside after school, having "friends" in the nieghborhood... cartoons and polo shirts haha :P

damn ha the people i use to hang out with haha.. i miss them, they were the definition of "cool", ha but actually yesterday i met this cool person haha

she told me to put it in this blog.. shes a "dork" as she calls herself ROFL..

but yeah she goes to Rowland.. and is in the drumline.. and she is VERY wierd? haha nah jk she seems like a mellow person.. half jap half mex.. cool huh?. but enough of her cuz she is probably still sleepin hahah LAZY :P.


im not a kid anymore, but damn i wish i were...at times the life seemed slow and relaxing but in time it by really fast. *sigh* hahaha i could remember so many damn things that i use to do... and now either im too big, or not into what i use to be haha :P


but reminiscing, it always make me think about the past, present, and future.. truly it does... and man.. sometimes it gets me stressed, happy, or somewhat upset.. ya know? im not emo or anything.. but shit just happens lol.

and as i think about what is going to happen later in my life.. i wonder if things will turn out the way i'd like it to turn out, ha a lil selfish maybe?.. but wouldnt u want the same..
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I need to talk to you, on the serious note. We've been here and there, but i think its time that i truly say whats on my mind, even though u might have assumptions of what i am thinkin, DONT.. because until u hear it directly from me, u have no idea.. understand?... Once things die down... and start to relax more... hopefully our two tracks in the dirt will create a road.... in the end i just want the best for both of us no matter the outcome of the situations, just realize that your something special and.. dont let anybody or anything stop u in pursuing your goals/dreams.. strive.

;)

please .. :). make my dreams come true

everyday that goes by

is the same o thing...


today, i pushed myself out of bed, and wrestled with the clock.

uhm hm, i had to walk to school ahah my parents were lazy, damn sucks huh?

its alright.. cuz it was pretty chill

i was trippin last night.. staying up all late.. trying to do work which i feel asleep on which i usually do.. and to learn that the grading period is due next friday so i have time.. and my chem notebook is due monday hahaha

wow thank god i actually did my chem notebook day by day for this last tri-semester.

:)

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the time seems to be gettin closer and closer to the time that will make u so happy..

hopefully i am not over thinking things.. but im finally gettin the nerve to show u where im coming from? ya know..

shiiiit lol.

well hopefully my weekend gets better.. history test 7am tomorrow..

then dline practice 9-1..yeah HW.. and SLEEP this weekend. hahhaaha

sounds good right?


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into a scene to seem to what is seemed ROFL.


-dreams seem to be dreams

my exit's here, i hit the bell for the bus STOP, still in the zone..

currently playing: Kero One - In A Dream

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Sup pplz,

Lately, i've been livin in a dream.. such as the lyrics are in Kero One's song 'In A Dream.' Dreams to me are mysterious and very obstract... not always telling the truth but at times revealing a secret that you need to know. Sometimes for the good, and sometimes for bad. Understand? See, when i also talk about dreams.. it could refer to goals/wishes.. in that kind of nature, but in the end that are all somewhat fairytale. Until one of them are complete those fiction thoughts come to life.

What do you think dreams are really about?.. has any of them had significant difference in one of your days?

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Another thing i'd like to get off my chest is that.. i think i am TOO nice... :(.

see "im torn, but i know where my heart is"

I know how to treat.. you.. him.. [HER]... right?!..

but how cant other people realize that im so willing for others. At times it seems like people wanna take advantage ... DONT TAKE MY KINDNESS FOR WEAKNESS... even if so... i dont know what to do

see this can sooo tie into girls, they dont see me as the person who i really am.. i've never really wondered why things never worked out for me... never is a strong word, but its NOT happened. Yes there are many fishes in the sea, but the ones i wanna pursue something with are allergic to me.. relationships are soo wierd.. i always thought that being respectful and nice.. and having a good attitude towards them would work out for the best.. but i guess not?.. the saying must be true nice guys finish last.. ?

OR IS IT?

See .. the damn nice guy thing i do to every one and its just WHO I AM REALLY AM.. a nice guy.. i am a cool mellow dude thats just chill ya know, but the nice guy trend ties into the "friends" cateorgies which ties into the "i dont knows" .. which ends up to the "sorry's" ... which i get ... 100 percent of the time.. cool huh?

No worries, i guess because time will tell, but .. dam man.. i feel like... shit sometimes because i dont know what to do? have u ever felt like that.. u just dont know what to do.. so u end up making a excuse of why u are like that or feeling that way.. and try to make the situation better..

I try that.. music..drums..family.. its all the love for them.. but i need love to..


i thought karma worked? :(.



-dreams are fckd up.

"Title"

just a lil rap i made ...

to my song's beat.. OVER THERE -->


[talking]yo whats up if u dont know by now.. lemme tell u a quick story, check it just listen...[done talking]

year 1991 a couple days before x-mas
everybody round' my mom to see whats next
granted smiles and love all in the atmosphere
knowing a gifted child was about to appear
my moms said i was a dream waiting to come alive
so i did what i had to do, and come into their lives
Ryan Immanuel Williams was that baby boy
Regina and Milton Williams'yes, their pride and joy
the little kid with succes in the future to come
each day showed them what my heart was made from
respect, dignity, class, and my own little style
gave me the strength to make it through the trial..s
and tribulations, the good and bad times for sure
under estimated but who cares i endured
took time but i grew up, and here i am today
the nice guy, ha, but dont take my kindness for weakness
(slow talking while it goes into the chorus)i am who i am.. what can else can i say


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I was going to put something else down,

but i want to leave it on a good vibe ya know?

so ill hit u up later



I was/am my mom's dream.



-peace.