Whats Todays, But Yesterdays Tomorrow

My dad gave me a big ass lecture on respect/disrespect.

I felt like i was 8 years old, being told what to do/not to do.

He told me that when i am older, and i have one more year until i graduate that my goal is to pursue into college.. get your BA, then your masters, and then probably your doctorate.

At this point all i am saying is "ok"... and nodding my head politely...

Enough of that
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On the good note, the lakers won <3.. 46-10.

I actually found my trackball rofl.. @ 11pm last night.
I was like fuck this i am going to find this, and first place i looked behind the piano there it was in two pieces, the trackball, and the silver ring to hold it in place... as i place the ball [thats not what she said] in the slot it functions immediately :D... and then the silver ring was being stupid so i kinda forced my way in their.

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And on another note, i keep having these wierd ass dreams, it was pretty scary... like creepy towards the end.. these fat dudes were fighting and one got hit in the chest really hard.. and see i dont get it, i am guessing i am the narrator cuz i know all in the dream right, i'm like the guy who died's soul or something.

from that blow, he died for "4 minutes" until this chick[no its not you, lol] that was in my other dream two night ago or so.. she wished him alive... yes yes.. long story, but the girl is very upset a couple nights ago and she was crying heavily, so God (i am guessing) helped her out and granted her wish that I WAS BACK ALIVE

(im goin back to my past dream)

So then im back alive in my bed.. i put my arm out to see if anyone is there, cuz im under the covers and scared as fucked, and i feel her body.. then yeah.. i woke up, no shit.

[back to last night]

well that chick, wished the fat guy back to life also... and i felt him come back to life.. and it was soooooo wierd... there was screams.. like a heavy force, all these different things for him to come back...

BUT the freaky thing is that, when he sat up... i was back into my dream a couple nights ago ;O ... oh shit lol.

[real life]

so im pretty much freaked out to go to sleep anymore.. and stay up its like 6:45.. and my alarm is @ 7.. so who cares

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Lately, i've been pretty stressed out, this is going to be probably my longest entry for a while....

So many things on my mind, and it is pretty hard to keep them all in tact, and in focus. School (present and future), Family, Drumline, Future, My Businesses, My Family Businesses, Reunions, Girls, MYSELF... it might not seem like a lot, but on my mind its being stressing me out hhaha

thank god for music right?... so i am able to chill @ times and put on a couple of jams that im diggin, but then again.. its always going to be back to force me into the stress mode . AHHH!

I'm getting help on it, i'm realizing on what i need, and what i want. After anyone differentiates those two categories than usually life comes at them a little easier.

Priorities to Likings.

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But then again :D.. life is good right now..

My cold is almost offically over, and i'm being feeling right great.

I can finally get back to my dline which i've missed out on a couple of rehearsals but its cool, im here for good again.. :D

And hopefully sooner than later i can get back to you, and show you how much i care, but i am not trying to be mister nerd at the moment. I feel that, when i choose the right time, to see where things are... things should be @ the place to move on into better things.


OFF TO PRACTICE!!



dreams are so strange, lol.


-Ryan